on the mend
I’m three weeks post-op and healing is happening. Life is full of the push and pull of recognizing my limitations. I can stretch my hands overhead but I have to sleep on my back still. I’m pretty independent but I get tired really quickly. I’m really bloated and I’m basically wearing a corset. My recall is really slow which makes complicated conversations hard. But I also feel more range of motion every day, closer to “getting my body back” (I feel very unfamiliar and out of reach to myself).
This was the unknowing that I was open to, but I didn’t know how it would feel and now I am in it. Swimming in new.
Monday was my first day back at work, and I also had to go out and buy a new journal, which I immediately ripped the cover of. I keep saying things are omens, but I don’t want to make bad luck for myself.
I did go to the studio last week and it flat out tuckered me out just getting there. I washed a print that had been slow exposing, ironed some things. But then had to sit for a long while and got a car home.
The one thing I have been doing is knitting a lot, which is really slowly satisfying. Repetitive, consistent, calming, tactile. Its been good for me but I don’t give it enough credit.
Anyways. A fun thing I did this week was subscribe to JJ’s patreon. If you don’t know JJ (you should!!) they are my friend who is so funny and sweet and caring and sharply observational and I felt like sharing these tweets of theirs would be a good distillation of why you should support them.
It was a no brainer to get a mainline to their cordoned-off thoughts. Premium content!! Go get it!
That’s it for now. Hoping my brain will be ramped back up soon enough.